If you have come to this post to laugh, prepare for a hard hit to the stomach. I’ll return more light-hearted tomorrow I promise.
Being 3000 miles away from everyone that you know and love is not easy. In fact it is by far the hardest thing I have ever done. When I have a bad day at work I can’t come home and talk to my best friends about our favorite Lord of the Rings characters and how they would survive in 2017, nor can I hope in the car and drive to my parents house for some fried chicken and ice cream. Now after a bad day at work, I have to go home and hope that one those people can talk on the phone (preferably on FaceTime so I can see their beautiful faces), or a I have to substitute it out for some form of entertainment. In today’s case that was in the form of Blade Runner 2049, and oh let me tell you (just go read my short review to see my true feelings). As much as I love movies, video games and bingeing television shows, I miss my family and friends.
Due to the fact that I was always so focused on the present and the future I rarely thought about past memories in my life. Now that I am 3000 miles away from those memories they seem to be the only things on my mind. Watching westerns with my dad, smoking cigars late at night with my friends, petty arguments with my sister. All of those memories are so vivid to me now, and I don’t know how to feel about it. Will this adventure be one of those memories? Or will it be something more? Who knows? What is the right balance between my dreams and my relationships? Where is a inspirational philosopher when I need one?
This is in no way to discourage you from chasing your dreams. If anything it should be a reason to drive those dreams. The fact that I miss everyone from back home pushes me to want to be better and to work harder at what I do. I have discovered more about myself in the month I’ve been here then I ever could have back home, and no matter what happens I am a better me because of it. I love my family and friends more than anything, and being away from them physically hurts me, but on the bright side I no longer have to deal with humidity. Who knows where I’ll end up, nut for now I will continue to dive head first into this insane city, one day hoping to reach the top.
That was a weird post, wasn’t it?